Starvin4Perfection--- ya know this last week with my personal life- i have felt very strongly the same way as you mention- why the hell does he stick out with me and how can he--- he loves me- I don't get it- I love him, but I feel I am not worthy for his love some days.. I mess up (I am messed up), I am a roller coaster of emotions, I am beginning to think I am a plague around fall and winter time- but yet he sticks it out with me- going to be three years together this coming Feb, he loves me- he sees the great things in me, he wishes i would be happy as I am some days and not so stressed, depressed, chaotic as other days with a week or day.

It is easy to see the horrid things with ourselves, and some how it is easier for people out side to see the greatness in us.. To me that is sort of sad, but ya know what- if they can see that greatness, hopefully some day we can too.

Maybe as LadyMac says- therapy and meds- maybe--

Personally with self trying Therapy- not meds yet but maybe here soon cuz I am just so tired of myself that with what Therapist says is what i know and try to do already have for years, maybe meds will help, but afraid--- It is all a self decision however.

DBT work book I personally am working out of too- it has helped a little- I hear groups if you can do them, are much much better for input- also I hear DBT there is struggle (I can agree with that but still trying it and it has given some insight though).

Wish you well and find what you need to help you-

Hugs and best wishes