thanks to both of u... i appreciate ur honesty and being able to tell me straight up... i need stuff straight forward... i do need to take care of my own mental health... and i need to get some books to help myself with my issues... do u guys suggest any books!!... i would really like suggestions on it...i am on meds... but i really need to see a doctor who is not a family doc and a realy mental health doc,... ok,,, i hope u guys reply,, thanks.. os