Thanks everyone. In the long run I know going to AA meetings will help me stay sober. I have started the steps with an online sponsor and have joined a few online AA groups. A few friends have offered to go with me to a meeting and that might be what I have to do. I get so nervous around people anyway and then add a room full of strangers at an AA meeting. I'm sure some shame is coming with this too. I'll just have to keep trying.

Thanks again.