are there any adults at school that you trust to help you find some help? depending on where you live there should be some programs in place to help students with these types of issues. or do you have a church you could visit? if there is an AlaTeen in your area (or AlAnon, they are found in the phone book) they are a great help for many people. don't give up, things will get better. there is a lot of helpful info on this site also.