I hate where I'm standing right now. I hate being who I am. I hate being this way. I hate everything about me.

I hate that I'm physically a small person and I hate that I got physically injured in my pass and I can't do my old job anymore. I was a nurses aid. This was my job. This was my field. This was what I love to do. I hate that I can't do it anymore.

This is the second job that I'm trying this spring and both have started the physical pain again from my previous work injury. D**m and d**m! I have not yet quit this last job but I know I will come to a point where I will not be able to stand the physical pain.

I'm so disapointed in myself! So mad at myself! So hate who I am!