Why is normality so fleeting? So the wheels have fallen off again I thought I was living in normality (ignoring warning signs that things were starting to go downhill) then I ended up with a weekend on call for work, crying my head off at everything that went slightly wrong.... I have recovered slightly with my 2 days off work but now I have 2 papers that need major revision in the next 2 weeks so I have that stress as well as the stress of work. It's just too much at the moment. I want to bury myself in my covers and sleep the world away.

On the plus side, I've been proactive about getting help - I rang my pdoc and we upped my antidepressant, and I have set up 2 different appointments to try and find a new T. (I need a new one because we moved away from my old city so my old T, who was awesome, is now 3 hours away ) I have also been steadfastly avoiding the temptation to go back to bed and hide, my dogs are helping by getting me outside to play...