You feel like being a happy person, not having to deal with depression. I hear you! Life is so hard to lead for most of us, but for some it's even worse.
Neither I nor anybody else can make the hard stuff go away... as you know. But please know, that we're here to support you and listen to you.
"Just" because you're dealing with these issues it doesn't mean that YOU are DEPRESSION. You are YOU and the depression is not something you've chosen.
Lift your head high and try to see YOU, instead of the depression. Because you're GOOD!
I know this isn't easy at all, I'm in the same place as you. But we can try to see things differently.
Those days when you're feeling a bit better- do something you really want to do- just for you. That day will be worth much!

(((((((((((((Sillygirl)))))))))))