I'm so glad you've made it this far, BNLsMOM, & that you had that great Hallowe'en you wanted with your family. But if you're "grappling" with calling pdoc, that sounds like a pretty strong sign that it's time to deal with this threat.

The thoughts are still coming at you. How much longer are going to gamble that one of them won't be The One?

My thoughts & prayers continue to be with you.