The loss of pay wouldn't be so bad if I at least felt like my job was secure and I was valued at work, but it's like there's no hope of anything getting better and constant threats of getting fired (they threaten all of us, not just me). After awhile it gets to a person, this feeling that 'this is all there is--in fact, it could get much worse than this'.

I have to try to find ways to cheer myself up and not take it personally, but it's hard. I don't feel good about just swallowing abuse from management just to stay poorly employed, but that's how it is. My therapist is always aghast and wanting me to assert myself and set limits and so forth, and they just ignore all of it and threaten. She doesn't 'get it' and I end up feeling like I can't please anyone.

I've seen so many people burn out in just a year. Well over a dozen I'd say. Maybe a couple of dozen. New employees realize really fast that you can't win and they either quit or get fired before they're even there six months.

In a better economy I'd quit but we need the money. We're not starving, band we still have our house, but we both have medical conditions--me with the psych meds, him with a chronic illness. So I drag my butt in there but it's very discouraging. I feel like I worked my way through college for nothing, because I did, apparently.