Here are many people that could help me at school but I don't want to ask anyone. I feel already like I'm a problem to everybody. I'm considering a therapist or psychiatrist after I get a little money. Or then I could just runaway.. But I definitely don't want to tell anyone who I know about this. To see the person who knows I have problems every day, I would feel ashamed. And I think that moving away from here would work the best. From the whole country. I could start a new life, which is really impossible to do here.. the people are all the same here, in my country. I'm really thankful for your replies and I'll consider telling to someone although I don't really want to do that.. Thanks