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I think we're getting back to the question - what are you afraid of? This can be answered on so many levels - not fulfilling my destiny was my usual answer. But my primary answer is - her. I was - am - afraid of my mother. She's kinda mean, maybe there are reasons for it - but I don't think she ever really liked me. So I don't like when the phone rings. My heart races, in a really bad way. What makes, or made, your heart race like that?
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Hankster: is this the question you meant? I'm afraid of a lot of things but I'm not sure they are relevant to my issues. I don't know what to answer: I guess I'm afraid of loss--losing people I care about, and not being able to survive. Well, that IS relevant, isn't it! My heart races when my H or kids are on the road or in the air and I worry something may happen to them. I worry that my grandchildren will die before I do. So, of course I worry about losing my T. I get immobilized when I think about those kinds of things.