(((sabby))) - hi. i am pre-diabetic and have suffered from high blood glucose all my life. i am not diabetic but have a lot of symptoms of diabetes including easily getting infections and the like. i know how hard it is to stick to a diabetic diet.

regarding my meds, i put them in a special coffee cup in the center of my kitchen counter every morning. all i have to do is walk into the kitchen and look into the cup to see if i've taken my meds for the day. it's a very behavioral way of doing things. everything i set out to do each day i lay out in front of me, even putting things on pillow on my bed as a reminder to do them before going to sleep. please try this with your meds.

your blood sugar is very high. i think the problem is more denial than suicidal. diabetes is one of those diseases with hidden side effects. unfortunately, the side effects are very, very bad - amputations, blindness, heart disease and neuropathy. proper care requires more than meds, it requires daily exercise and diet changes.

please feel welcome to PM me when you need support. i will be glad to help. frankly, i could often use emotional support too. all the best to you!