Hi RomanSunburn,

Thanks. I would understand if she were friends with him and out of loyalty she did that but she and him aren't friends, they'd only met twice.. in a group.. that's why i feel he has said something to her because she all of a sudden has stopped communicating with me.. i've seen him lie about others and pass around others personal stuff so that's why i wouldn't be surprised if he'd done this...

Secondly, I try so hard to tell myself his response is beyond my control and i believe it is too, what makes it hard is that my actions were under my control and I feel like i blew up the love of my life ( as crazy as it sounds becuase i only knew him for a month) but i really really really liked him, A LOT! i felt he was my soulmate, and i constantly feel i messed up big time, but then theres the other side of me that believes that i also realized i did wrong and i apologized (i tried to fix it, and if he really cared he could have said it to my face he was hurt by my actions, but maybe then again he's nonconfrontational...or doesn't know how to communicate unless its passive aggressively..), i could have communicated in a calmer manner but at that time he said something and i just blew up... i have a hard time controlling my anger if its aroused in teh middle of a conversation..

i'm feeling extreme guilt and am feeling responsible for all this.. that's what i need help with at this point