since january i have been trying to find a decent job . somedays i couldn't leave the house but other days i would pull myself together and get out and try. I am onto my 2nd casual job this year and i don't get along with my new boss...this is a first for me. She gives me mixed messages and i am constantly on edge and soon i will have no confidence at all. Anyway i heard about another job and managed to get a trial...this was slightly different work and confusing but would be a better option for me. I am now waiting to know if i got that job...and at the same time my current boss is angry at me because she found out i applied for another job. I am so anxious and sick of the ups and downs. Its also hard because i live in a small town with high unemployment where everyone knows everyone. I am also sick of being the middle aged trainee i just so badly want to get on with work like a normal person. I am dependent on government income support too so i have to answer that department regularly as to why i don't get more work. I am doing my best it just never seems good enough. thanks for listening