See a doctor. If you have a regular doc you could go to them and ask if they think it's serious enough to have to go to a psychiatrist. Or you could just go right to a psychiatrist if you think you are really doing bad. Take some of the tests on this site and it will give you an idea of what level of depression you are at, but its not a substitute for going to a doctor. Are you sure you have no one to call? I have been depressed my whole life and i am still learning about it. Maybe try reading up on it some? Just get some help or it could get out of control. Hope you feel better soon.