haha, yeah I've been blaming it on my T, but all I get are responses like "hmph" and a rolling of the eyes, or a "Why do they think that?" and expect some explanation they might agree with that I can't provide. My T says I just need to learn to let them think what they want to think and know that I am doing the right thing for me right now. My work people are similar but I don't talk to them much. The human resources lady is cool about it but everyone else is not. I guess it's a pain for people to hold a job when you're on FMLA but that's what it's for.

Just wish I had better plans. And then sometimes I really feel crappy, but I feel like I shouldn't because I'm out of the hospital now, I'm supposed to be on the upswing of things you know? Not that I expect to get out and have everything be perfect but it does seem expected of me that my mood and things in general be headed in the "upwards" direction so when it's not it feels like a failure and I don't want all that to be for nothing.

Sorry this is turning into rambling. Just been a rough day overall. Despite the face I took a 3hr nap because again, I have no motivation to do anything. UGH!