I've been trying to figure out for weeks now, why the relationship with my T. brings up such feelings of fear of abandonment. I've realized that those feelings only come up when I want to share something...feelings, complaint, special request, pretty much anything that I think my T. would view as negative...

I think maybe I've figured it out...when my parents fought when I was little, which seems like it was all the time, .. I would lay in bed and listen to fight and then hear my dad slam the door and the car start up.... I used to wonder if he would come back...

I guess maybe I associate someone being angry or mad at me with them leaving... maybe...