I feel like I am on the road to healing these days. There is a new strength in me. T wants me to write down the topics for us to talk about this week, but I have seriously been struggling. We debated the usefulness of even trying, but I will do so.

I am applying for graduate school once again. It might not work out. Also, I am translating a book. That might not work out either. You try, and you fail, and you try, and you fail. But this time, I feel invincible. Because I know that even if the worst happens, I am prepared. For the first time, I just know my life is not in other peoples' hands-- it is in mine.

Can T help? This is kind of a throwaway post but I'm going to post more about that in 2 days.