Cool ok so youre not having major panic attacks and not cutting like you use to....this is good...shows you have made more progress than you thought when you posted this....It will get better and better but I agree its a looooooooooooooooooooooooooong road...At one time I thought I would never be able to read...again or not think SI thoughts at the sight of something sharp..now its not a thought at all.....took me maybe a year or so to blow it ALL off