So. I sent T an email saying I appreciated and cared for her and that I loved her as a person. I was going to just save the email and agonize for a while whether or not to send it, but I accidentally pushed send.

So I hope she is ok with it. I told her, it's not like I am some stalker or anything. Also, I told her how it was important for me to be able to say that because I trust her completely, finally, in the 8 some odd years I have been seeing her. I don't trust anyone else completely, not my partner and certainly not my parents and siblings. So I really hope she acknowledges it and responds to it positively. If not, that is just really gonna suck. I will lose all trust in her and I will feel betrayed.