Hey Ladies, thanks for your input.

Thanks Ladymacabethadmunsen, I actually do go to therapy, more of an imago type because my therapist considers me "high functioning" but I have difficulties with confidence and learning to not instigate arguments when things are good in my relationship because I feel like I need the chaos. The medications I take work amazingly well, I'm very happy with them, I just have my days where I'm a little off. I've heard DBT works really well for BPD, but I leery of group therapy.

Thanks Beauflow. I think you're right, our significant others must obviously love us or they wouldn't have hung around this long, ya know? Although I know I piss him off a lot, deep down he says I'm a good girlfriend and he's very lucky... I just know that things would be even more amazing if I could learn to keep my emotions in check and stop letting stupid things get to me so much. Congratulations to you are your relationship; knowing that someone loves you, even if you don't understand why sometimes, is the best feeling in the world so I'm happy you guys are going strong!

Thanks again