Hey,

Yes, first i feel guilty i hurt him and i messed it up for myself because I really liked him...i feel like its ME who's responsible for losing him..
then i feel angry, because he didn't confront me and pretended everything was okay by saying it was but his actions were different, they'd changed...

i also then feel angry that the reason i shouted was because he was telling a white lie.. wasn't being direct.

he's not very direct, he doesn't confront... he gets passive aggressive... which is fine, i dont expect him to be different.. but i'm angry at the fact that atleast he should kind of try to talk it out with me so he doesn't just end the relationship completely.. without understanding my side...

So there's a lot of mixture of feelings, i swing back and forth between guilt and anger, and then sadness is somewhere there.. now i'm also hurt that I never got closure, its like i just got kicked to the side and dropped and thrown away without reason.. its not like I did such a BIG thing like cheated on him, I just yelled at him ONCE.. not saying its right, but saying that the punishment for that is not fair...he left me.

To top that off, i'm 1000% sure he's said something to that girl because he knew we were talking business, he knew i needed to meet with her regarding work soon.. and he also knew i liked her as a person and we were probably gonna be friends in the future (me and her)...