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Originally Posted by Charlie_J
I have this problem too, and I've been bp for the last 17 years, only just started taking meds. I've ended up with enough "hobbies" for twenty people. I think that when I'm "well" I can turn my hand to anything and be great at it, but having the wherewithall to see things through is impossible. I think I'd rather be good at one or two things and be able to finish them.
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Ha! This is exactly like me! I was actually good at everything I tried - moderately, that is. But no great shakes, which kinda irked me. Eventually I decided to specialize on two things (knitting and photography) to get better at them. It worked!
Then I made a rule that I can only have one active knitting project at a time. This definitely helps me get things done. By the time I'm bored with one project, I really really want to start the next one, but I don't let myself do it until project #1 is completed.
I'm extremely strict with myself about finishing what I start because I find it so incredibly distressing to be chronically unable to finish things. So to the casual observer, it looks as though I have no problems with finishing things, but the truth is, it's a huge amount of work to finish anything and a constant struggle to maintain my "rules" and keep from taking on more stuff that I shouldn't be doing.
But I've noticed lately (along with a bunch of other frequently recurring hypomanic symptoms) that I'm starting more projects, and picking up more hobbies lately, which I'm taking as a warning sign.
So lately, I keep having to say, "No, Self, you do not need to do any more geocaching - just get that travel bug to a proper cache and be done with it! No, Self, you do not have time to start an Etsy store to sell off all the handmade jewelry and knitted stuff that you want to purge from the house. No, Self, you do not have time to do anything but work on your dissertation!"
Thanks so much for this - I thought it was just me being a dilettante as usual.