And that I very occasionally drive by her house to check she's still there.

What is going on with me? I feel like a crazy stalker or some lovesick teenager. I don't like feeling like this but I know that to move things on right now and to develop a different level of trust I need to see how she will react. I need to see that she does truly understand and care. I need to know that she's not going to get rid of me although I wouldn't blame her if she did.

I see her tomorrow morning and I am a complete bundle of nerves. What if she freaks out and does want rid of me? She has said I need to take risks sometimes in therapy but this feels like a biggie.