Hi Nelliecat - the T relationship is so weird - my T talks about the push / pull of therapy and I think for me that is so true - I want to be with T all the time, yet get scared of seeing him at the same time - senseless isn't it?

I think it is natural to want to check that T is still there - I even wonder whether this is partly why I e-mail my T between sessions sometimes, just to make sure he is real and has not disappeared.

I am sure we all test our T's from time to time too (my T said he is aware that I have done this, but I am not conscious of it).

Good luck in being able to share as much as you want to with your T tomorrow - I think risks can pay off, even if it isn't immediately apparent.

Will be thinking of you tomorrow - Soup