hey, unhappy... these are interesting points you bring. I don't think my views stand in my way though, as I can dela with people with different stances. My close friends have quite different world view from me and we can handle it. I admit, I cannot deal with people who don't have opinions and word views though, as I find them boring.

without getting too much into detail... i think my problems are rooted in my fears... for example, I don't want a partner as I might be too much of mess for them.... I fear of hurting people by my mere existence, by some stupid but "fatal" mistake. And sometimes I don't want to get tied down... I am a loner and I don't bond well... and yeah, I do things on my own, hence my being hesitant about other being able to help.

yeah, I guess I may need some help here. But than again... can I be helped? Or am I this oddity... that cannot be changed all that much?