BeeBizzy, welcome to psych central. I must tell you when I got my diagnoses I was relieved because it really explained a lot. The first book I reached for to educate myself as to my condition was "Bipolar for Dummies". That book really helped me understand the illness. Also I went to group therapy which really helped so much because for one you are around people who understand and by them sharing their experiences you will identify with them and for two the group is lead by a therapist that teaches you things about bipolar and how to better cope. I think in time you will realize that you are still you and that you're still a competent individual. You're not broken you just suffer an illness just as a person with diabetes does. And like a diabetic you also need medication to stay well.

Best of luck in your journey of learning, healing and accepting. Be well and be happy