Roadrunner is spot on! Not good with words/writing, bear that in mind.

Frankly I am stunned you were given the option of "deciding" on hospitalization. Were you as honest with T & pdoc as you are on here?

Halloween was 2days ago, hubby will get better & children pick on way more than you think.

You see-saw between partially rational then being totally out of control of your thoughts. At this point you have/can NOT control this. Can any med out there take these ideations away after one dose/pill?

Blunt, but don't know what else to say except keep posting because WE care!!!