Thanks, Rohag

My doctors are aware of this, it was the reason they put me on the beta blockers. I have been on Amitriptyline before and come off it because I thought it was causing/worsening the symptoms of anxiety, but the anxiety continued (and went much worse at times) whilst I tried various other antidepressants - none of which worked like the Amitriptyline did. It's the only med that has ever lifted my mood AT ALL and so in desperation I asked to be put back on it. The beta blockers definitely help with the anxiety, but I'm not sure if they are really a good thing to be taking all the time. I'm concerned that taking all these meds isn't good for my body - but am scared to come off them and end up in a real mess like before -- I feel like they help me 'cope' better than I have in a while.

I think I will need to make another appointment with my doctor and get them to check things like my blood pressure/pulse -- make sure things are okay, because I am concerned (was on my exercise bike the other day and my pulse was at just 60!) Maybe they need to try prescribing me something else.

I don't know... not sure if I can even blame my AD for causing anxiety - maybe I would have had the anxiety anyway. I just feel like there should be a reason? Like, surely there is a reason why!

I think perhaps I could deal with knowing that certain situations might make me anxious, because perhaps I could understand that -- but what is happening to me makes me feel like I'm disconnected from my own body and mind, and I just don't know what to do about it.