So, here it goes. Today started the first day of my three week without my fiancee. I am terrified of a relapse, I know with proper support and being open and honest with myself and my feelings I will be able to continue being failure free.

Here is a brief run down. I have suffered from every extreme of ED possible, from drinking three bottles of milk of magnesium a day to being extremely under weight and I'm very tall. Along with the ed I. Have been known to substitute food compulsion with return.g to get sexual attention. Or drinking heavily.

Since I have met my current beau, I have proudly gone 5 weeks without a recurrence of any of those behaviors, and trust me, it hasn't been easy. The desire to be a better person for my own sake as well as our future is too strong to let suffer.

I just dropped him off at the airport to be gone to Australia (my dream) for three whole weeks. I am faced with being alone, well, alone with my disorder.

I am crying for help.

Please.