I am having VERY similar problems right now!! Been really really manic for about almost 6 months. Normally I stay more on the depressed side of bipolar...been inpatient 6 times for it....both my psych docs have been wanting to put me inpatient for the mania, but I keep talking my way out of it....they said pretty soon it would be against my will. I am taking some of my meds, but not all bc I am having fun & think I deserve this happiness considering how much gloom there is in my life. The bad part is, I have been having hallucinations. Some of them are very vivid, but not frightening. Also, I sleep walk every night the last few weeks (normally just go into den n watch tv, pretty harmless except when raided freezer few days ago & didnt close it back all the way & ruined all the food in it, whoops!). There is one hallucination that is WAY too real that has been occuring every night. I wont trigger anyone on here by describing it, but it is seriously sick & evil!!!! So, I know how you feel about loving being manic, yet there are some parts that are unpleasant & you know are not good. I know if I tell my docs I will be inpatient & I just cant do that again. Also, dont like to lie to my docs though. I try to always be as honest as possible. My therapist needed to reschedule & in the back & forth emails about it I did say that I didnt wanna delay the appt. more than absolutely had to bc I had something disturbing going on.....she actually moved my appt. up from when it originally was.....just hope it doesnt go bad....afraid I have already said to much & dont know what to tell her. I will let you know if I figure out any advice from doctors, I will pass it along to you....hope you get all this figured out soon!!!