So Im depressed about just about everything but I focus on it so much that its all just blurred into one big reason for depression...which I cant quite get my finger on tonight.
But Im sitting here realizing I have no one.

My boyfriend and I have been having problems lately. And it really sucks because we both get the same way about **** and just end up depressing eachother more. And I work now and I get no time at home to really spend with him. Then the time I do get, something like tonight happens.

My friend from 2nd grade was my best friend til around a few months ago, she turned to her girlfriend for everything, but they dont see theyre seriously bringing eachother down. Id get into it but its this useless babble that is totally off topic. Anyway, any time I try to talk to this friend, its useless because her IQ and common sense is at about a 2 even though I love her to death, shes just not good with that stuff

Then my other friends from school have completely changed on me and I never see them anymore and theyre so ****ing fake now like the whole world around me I cant stand to even try to make plans with them,

Anyways. I feel like curling up into a little ball and disappearing.
Or chopping all my hair off and become a new person.
And the me that isnt right now wouldnt like the outcome of either of those.
Neither would my boyfriend. haha.
[had to get some humor in there]