YOU GUYS!!! I DID IT!!! I told T about what the receptionists have been doing. It was just so awesome. She didn't let me down at all. I knew I could count on her. It all went down like this (I'm sharing parts that are straight to the point although more was disscussed):

T: Is there some other reason why you feel conflicted about doing therapy?
Me: Yes, but I don't want to talk about it.
T: I think it would help to talk about it.
Me: It's not you. It has never been you. If you weren't here, I wouldn't even come to this side.
T: Has someone done something to you?
Me: ......I'm sorry.....I just don't want to bad mouth anyone.
T: Is it the front desk?
Me: I nodded my head and said "Yes."
T: It is important for me to know who's doing this because if this is happening to you then it could be very likely that it is happening to someone else. I need to know so I would know if changes need to be made."

So I told T about the upsetting feelings I get especially about feeling like it's a "fight" for appointments to see her and it made me feel unwelcomed. T said she can override the policy regarding allowing just three appointments. She said I've been showing up for my appointments and she gets to decided how many appointments I can have scheduled out, not the reps. The pain in my heart subsided. Here' some more dialogue:

T: I still don't know who you're talking about.
Me: Some of them I don't know their names because they have their nametags turned around so I can't see their names but I remember how they look like. I won't tell you their names because I don't want to get them into trouble. I can tell you who I think has been really nice to me?
T: Sure.
Me: .....oh....there's two. (So I gave her the two names).
T nodded and said: "Yes, they're very professional."
Me: Yes, I think so too.

T then said that if they give me a hard time at the front desk again about scheduling out then tell them that T is fine with it and if they continue doing this to me to tell them to call her. MAN!!!! Why is T so COOL.

More dialogue:

Me: You make me feel so good.
T: Shucks! (snapped her figures at the same time
with a smile on her face). Wait, I hope I do make you feel good.
Me: Yes..........you do.

We both smiled at each other. Right there, I almost told her that I was attached to her. I held back though. I have a feeling she already knows I'm attached to her. Gosh! I REALLY like my T. I thought it was a really good session.

I can't believe I'm saying this but my heart was acutally free of pain for a few mintues.

So thank you all for your support!!! I don't think I could have done it without your support. Here's some massive hugs to you all