Thanks, Open Eyes. Your words are very wise. But, I find little solace in them. I am a deeply damaged person and the damage is not reversible. No amount of therapy can fix me. I expressed my frustration to my T tonight. Don't bother with CBT, it does not work on complex PTSD. I had 3 years of it, simultaneously doing both individual and group therapy. After the 3 years, I was worse.

Tonight I told the T I wanted to be institutionalized because I cannot be fixed. I told him I have given up and have no hope. He told me that I was not crazy. I said that I no longer wanted to work on my mother issues; they are too painful and I cannot deal with them. I also have given up on my sexual issues. And, I have no hope in finding a job. Maybe it's better that I give up therapy because working on my issues is so upsetting. I stand no chance of having a normal life.