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Old Nov 03, 2011, 12:59 AM
freespirit46 freespirit46 is offline
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I suffer from depression and anxiety and i frequently get anxiety attacks when I'm stressed or lonely, but i'd never had one like this. I'm an introverted person and I prefer to be by myself, but I always feel this massive pressure in society to break out of my shell and make plans with people. I always try so hard to schedule my whole week so that I always have tons of plans with my friends, even if I would much rather just spend time to myself to read or something. Anyway, I was so excited because my best friend and I were going to a high-school football game together and I was so excited, it was the only thing keeping me going in the week. Looking back, I don't know if I was truly excited, or if I just liked the feeling that I'm not worthless, and that someone actually cares enough for me to spend their friday with me. I actually felt happy. I got in a fight with my dad a few days before. I have to mention that my dad and I do not get along at all! I feel like he doesn't even know me. He is disrespectful of my age and he doesn't understand a lot that I go through. He grounded me that weekend. The weekend I put my heart into for so long. I already have massive depression and the feeling that no one ever wants to hang out with me, it is always me trying so hard. My friend wasn't even that upset when I told him I wasn't going. He said that it was fine because he had some other friends to meet up with. This made me feel so out of control and in a panic state. The fact that I couldn't go was heart-breaking. The weirdest type of anxiety attack began to occur. I couldn't breathe (a typical anxiety symptom) and then my hands started severely shaking, almost like the feeling when they fall asleep, but much worse. They were shaking so bad, I couldn't even move them. I literally had no control over my hands. I couldn't grip them or even feel them. They were out-of-control like the rest of my life. I know this was an extreme anxiety attack because I talked to my psychiatrist, but I wasn't sure what was wrong with my hands at the time. Is this type of anxiety attack normal? Has anyone you know or you had it? Does anyone have a logical over why i couldn't move my hands?