It's been a while since I stopped taking my meds. I just hated them and had a feeling that they do more harm than good. I tried to put myself right with the aid of religion and spirituality and I'e been successful to a great extent. I don't get depressed anymore. Actually I do, but it's not really depression. It's just the slight blueness that everyone experiences I think. I no longer have any thoughts of SI or suicide either. What I do have is occasional crazy insane nights when I can't sit still or stay quiet for more than 3 seconds! I talk and sing and dance and laugh and I simply cannot stop. Nor can I concentrate on anything. I think that might be the hypomania kicking in, but is it possible for hypomania to come without depression? I've been like this for 6 months now (more or less) whereas before I stopped my meds I switched every few days or even several times in each day. I don't mind the unusual happiness and energy though (who would?!). What bothers me is the inability to concentrate. I am 18 years old and I have not finished high school yet! Every time I try to study I find that I can't concentrate on the text in front of me enough to learn anything and it makes me angry and irritable and even depressed. And I have the problem that Moose brought up in another thread: I can't finish most of the tasks that I begin (making me feel useless). I just don't know what to do