Something clearly is wrong. Pouring alcohol down your throat means that your body, your mind more precisely is looking for relief. Relief from what? You haven't said and of course it is very important to get to the bottom of your problem but that's something you could discuss with a professional. You may need some therapy and/or anti-depression meds but continuing to drink will ultimately make you more depressed. In fact, it will alter your brain's chemistry and make things doubly difficult.

It is not an easy thing to do, stop drinking...the body screams out, "More! More! More!" because it likes the fleeting good feelings that drinking create but those feelings are entirely false. You will never find happiness or fulfillment in a bottle, in a pill, in a needle. The good thing is that you are young and the fact that you recognize your problem so early on puts you in a great position to correct this problem before it gets out of hand. Be strong, there is no one worth saving more than yourself. Good luck.