Well, here I am! Read the blog too.

You say you just want to be heard, but WOW Anna! The way you keep changing threads then using them to lead to your blog ...

It's like a game of follow the leader!

I'm so sorry that people close to you aren't paying attention. Do you work in a place big enough to have a Human Resource or Employee Relations office? If so, there would be someone there to talk with. These people are separate from your boss or supervisor & word would not get back.

Otherwise, as strongly as you're pulled to ending your life, your could go to your ER. I know that sounds like the worst thing, but you could get someone to listen & maybe some ongoing therapy once you come out. Would that be something you'd consider?

In the meantime, as long as I can track you down here, I'll be listening.
Roadrunner