That sounds tough, skysblue--but I'm sure you'll feel glad that you had this time with your friend.

About contact with your T. Didn't she tell you that it would be okay to contact her and she wouldn't charge you?

When we need comfort, it seems logical to want to get it from our T. Maybe you can visualize what she'd say to you about this situation (did she know about your plans?) and how she would help you.