Thanks Rainbow
Yeah, T said I could call and leave messages but she won't be back in the country until Nov. 21st to retrieve them.

But, it's o.k., I really really do know what to do. I can handle these emotions. I have the skills and who knows - maybe it won't be that emotional after all.

I'm very familiar and comfortable with the idea of death and the passing on. I'm less comfortable watching suffering. I took care of my mother her last days and it was grueling - both physically, emotionally and mentally. Boy, I sure could have used a T then.

I am usually the strong one and I am usually the one offering support. I don't know why this situation seems like it might be more unsettling than usual but maybe just because I've been through some tough stuff lately.

But, I'm confident it will be o.k. It just would have been nice to be able to touch bases with T. Not to be, though and that's o.k.