I get such a feeling of revulsion everytime I read about people wanting a mother - I feel like the guy in A Clockwork Orange. It WOULD require me being compassionate towards my feelings to even begin to change that; although I realize that is not what you said, I find it useful. But I doubt my feelings in this regard will ever normalize. I want to yell, "YOU BIG BABIES!" - but as the words come out, I hear the echoes from my past.