yes I do feel that way...The way I feel is a little bit different though I think...Like I am always afraid that if something good happens, something bad will follow...An example would be.. when I found out I was pregnant (both times) I was so happy, but at the same time, I was scared because I thought something bad would happen and I would lose the baby...I always feel that way..I hate it! I am always hopeful, and pessimistic at the same time....I always am thinking in time something bad will happen.