i hope i have ended my SIing. i have started medication two weeks ago, shortly after my parents found out about everything. they had me on a 72hr watch and the whole watnot, made me show them, etc. i now have therapy once a week, but i cant help myself from wondering, is this really the end? i stopped SIing once back a couple years ago, then i thought it was over, so, how can i know if this is really over now??? ive only felt like ive needed to twice since around the 18th of october, but im still woried if a may get bad off again. my mom cried at the crisis center they took me to. i made my mom cry, it was my fault. i caused this. i want it to be over, but how come i feel like its not? why do i feel like i will break my promise and do it again? i my therapist wonders what it is exactly i think started it, but i dnt rly know, i know what i felt, but i cant put it in words, even whenn i try the hardest.