Hey all. I was diagnosed several years ago as suffering from rapid-cycling bi-polar disorder. However, through treatment, I am now finally able to access some of the feelings and subconcious thoughts that have been hidden from me for decades. I now can hear how afraid I have been of my spouse leaving me and how that internal fear has really driven me to have irrational jealousy. In the distant past, I would act out from these (then unconcious) feelings impulsively and had several one-night affairs (I am very ashamed of the way I handled stress before). Anyway, I now see a ton of borderline characteristics common to my thoughts. I have suicidal thoughts but would never hurt myself because I have five wonderful kids. However, I have the thoughts. I have extreme anxiety when there are thoughts and feelings I don't want to admit are there or be able to deal with them. I guess my point is that I meet at least 5 of the 9 DSM traits to be at least leaning toward borderline as opposed to bi-polar. Has anyone else learned that their shrink was overly kind with the bipolar designation only to learn that the problems are probably more pervasive?