Twice I have enticed my dog to lick me. I was intoxicated both times, but not to the point of being completely unaware. I am disgusted with myself so that I can't look in the mirror, eat, or sleep. I certainly can't look at the dog---my hiking buddy. No force involved. I'm not usually a very sexual person. It deters me from relationships (that's another issue itself because I don't want to be lonely) and was a major factor in breaking an engagement. So why this, twice, with a precious pup that deserves respect? I feel like giving her away. I feel like I'm a terrible owner and a terrible person. I don't know how to face the shame and humiliation I feel. I don't know what I expect from admitting this; I guess part of me is wondering if it's a sign of a bigger issue. Please don't judge me...I feel terrible already. I just want to come to a rational state of mind where this never happens again and where I can sleep again.