its normal for men to stare at boobs but with me its like its almost abnormally normal for me to be staring at boobs. which is irritating, embarrissng, frustrating, shameful, disgusting, sick, unwanted, could also be illegal i cant control myself. almost any women even family and realtives i am unable to have control over my eyes(mind). is it because of intrusive thoughts, sexual addiction(i have never had sex though), may be PTSD coz once i was almost got caught getting cozy with a housemaid at our house when suddenly a visitor appeared and i got hell scared and i feel guilty coz i shouldnt have done that but i was 16 and very very curious because of this i dont trust myself around anyone especially kids. they scare the hell out me. every other women reminds of my brute self even women within the family are no exeptions. have i crossed the barrier that sets apart a regular OCD/POCD with intrusive thoughts and me who fears i have already done something that shouldnt have been done and worrying what else i might do.