I am sorry to hear you had such a disconnected appointment. It always feels horrible when that happens. It would distress me too if the appointments were not a set time. Are you at the point of perhaps finding someone else who can provide you with that? It does not sound in the immediate future with this t and it keeps sounding like something you would like. Perhaps you could interview a few others to see if you thought they could be a fit with you too. Your current t would understand if you needed to find a new one who could suit your needs better.