I'm not handling things well...and I'm out of control...and I had to start DBT and now I have to document my SI and talk about it and I'm not safe with the person I have to talk about it to. I'm scared and feel naked and alone, and I hate this. I'm so incredibly ashamed, and he shames me more. When I don't do it and I really need to, the pain becomes so unbearable I just hear the screaming inside my head. I don't know what to do and I'm trying everything in my bag of tricks to make it through. It's like I'm dissolving from the inside out.
I hurt.