I've recently left a pretty voliatile family situation...i'm 21 now and when i was growing up, as far back as i can remember my parents thought with each other and i felt like i was the scapegoat for thier problems, i was the one holding that family all together. My mum has bipolar disorder but she refuses to seek any help at all for it...and a lot of it my parents blamed on me. anyway, i am in therapy atm and keep having, well i dunno if they're flashbacks, but if someone is talking about her family or whatever i'll think back to how difficult things are with my parents and often certain memories will come up like my mother saying she wished she was dead when i was a teenager or my getting into such a bad argument to the point where my father hit her. and i hafta remind myself i'm not there anymore, i'm safe now, but at the same time i just can't seem to get it all out of my head. i wish i could, i want to just move on...