I see a psychiatrist that does therapy ( a rare breed these days!). He does not email. I have a set time to see him. It's his full time job. This model has worked very well for me.

That's not to say that therapy did not become a HUGE thing in my life. I also fluctuated between hating him and loving him. I learned that it was a habit of mine. Things go well, I loved him. Things did not go well, I hated him and would quit.

It was not a healthy thing for me - that all or nothing. There is a lot of middle ground.

I think it might help you to step back and look at your therapy with your current therapist as a whole. Try to be as objective as you possibly can.

yes, you had a bad, heartbreaking session, BUT, in the context of your entire therapy does the good outweigh the bad.

The grass may not be greener on the other side, and in fact, it may be a good thing for you to stay and work through these issues with your current therapist.

Having watched these boards for sometime now, I have become convinced that email just causes more harm than good for some people. I think it is just best left alone. Of course, it wasn't a part of my therapy so I may just be projecting my own experience onto others.